Sunday, February 10, 2013

So...this whole "adult" thing...

I suppose that I have been an adult for a while now, but in all honesty, I still don't feel like an adult.  Technically I have been out on my own since I was 18...making my own choices, my own money, and my own mistakes.  But really, I have been in school that whole time, so it feels like all the freedom wasn't really unleashed until recently.  Moving to a city and basically having the mindset of "I can do anything I darn well please!" has brought out a different side of me.  Not good or bad...just different.  Needless to say, this whole adult thing has it's ups and downs. 


Up:  I can eat anything I want!  Ice cream for breakfast? Done!  Cookies for lunch? Done!  Cookies and cream ice cream for dinner? Done!

Down:  I have to consider my weight and health becasue I am (gasp) 26 years old!  Ice cream and cookies aren't going to cut it a few years down the road.  (Okay, if I'm being completely honest, the ice cream and cookie diet isn't really cutting it now)

 
Up:  My free time is awesome.  I can do whatever I want!  Naps, movies, shopping, walks, play my Uke, friendship time, video games*, taking a shot of vodka at noon just because I wanna...(hahaha, just kidding...no, but really).   No more teachers, books, deadlines, or people checking in on progress...well except my parents, but that's just because they are good like that.
 
Down: Ha!  Who am I kidding?  There is no downside to this.


Up: I am my own boss.  I am my own motivator.  I answer to me. 

Down: Where is my A+?!  My Sticker!?!  My gold star!!!!  

 
Up:  I can be friends with whomever I want.  My friends aren't chosen for me based on who is in my class.  I can pick what type of person I want to be and form my friendships based on who will help me become that person.

Down: Let's be real, I'm really not very good at making friends.  My bubble is comfortable.

 
Down:  Bills. Rent. Money. The pressure of planning for the future while still trying to live in this moment. (This doesn't have an "up".  It just doesn't.) 


That's all.


* It has occurred to me recently that I should invest (to use my Mom's favorite word) in a Wii. I'm not really a "Gamer" persay, but I do enjoy a good game of Mario Racecart every now and then. I feel like playing video games would be a very prodcutive way to waste my time. So if anyone wants to send me a Wii out of the goodnes of his heart (*cough* Dathan *cough*) I would be open to recieving the gift.