Tuesday, July 23, 2013

This One's Been A Long Time Coming!!



So when I started writing this post…2 weeks ago, I wanted to catch you up on the last several months. Something I wouldn’t have to do if I was consistently writing! Anyway the post began with this long sort of clever, if I do say so myself, apology for not writing and then a long recap of what’s been going on in this crazy 2013. What’s funny is this past week alone has been so hectic that there is no possible way that I can write a summary of the past several months and you stay awake to read it! So I will make this as quick and painless as possible and hopefully you’ll get a glimpse of how the Windy City and I have been getting along.


Over the last six months I've had the opportunity to meet, work, and play with some pretty memorable people, take on a role that I'll probably never get the chance to play again, and fall in love with a restaurant that sticks french fries INSIDE their gyros...that's right people it's a topping not just a side dish! 

In January I started a four month internship with an amazing Casting office here in the city and can I just say that it is soooo much more relaxing to be the person on the couch instead of the person in front of it. I was reminded of many things from my time here but two things really stuck with me. 1. The casting director is sadder than you the actor are, when you’re not on you’re A game because it just means that he wasn’t able to get his job done! And 2. Answering phones is hard! Don’t laugh. I mean it. Oh sure picking up a phone and sounding pleasant is easy but when you have four calls coming in at the same time and three have asked to speak to the same person and you can’t remember the first caller’s name because he screamed it at you while driving down the highway thousands of miles away and you’re almost sure that caller number three is some big FOX executive because the name his foreign assistant gave you sounded like the name on the piece of paper in front of you titled IMPORTANT PEOPLE!!!!...well then you can come talk to me:)
        
I started rehearsals for an all female production of Julius Caesar, which opened in March and closed in April. The overall process was amazing. I remember going to the call back and being blown away by all of these women who each had a powerful presence and larger than life voice. I knew right away that this was something I wanted to be a part of. I think what made being cast as Mark Antony so appealing was that everyone that I talked to had a strong opinion or preconceived idea of who this person was. I didn’t have one at all so the process of creating was fresh and fun. The show itself did well and we received some great reviews but what I appreciated were the friendships I made within the cast. In fact a group of us are going bowling soon. Pretty excited.   

         So, about three weeks into my internship things begin to pick up speed. We were getting ready to plunge into pilot season and suddenly famous acronyms like ABC, NBC, and FOX were being thrown around. The office was looking to cast several pilots and films and I knew that as the reader (the person reading with all of the actors during their auditions, for all of you non-actors), I’d have the opportunity to take part in a process few people get to witness and I’d learn what makes actors pop in the eyes of those casting.
         I witnessed great directors who had worked on projects like the West Wing and Boss talk to actors about what was needed for a role and how to get there. I watched as great and experienced actors came in and blew everyone away with their preparedness and graciousness and I learned that the number one thing that an actor must be beyond anything else is a hard worker. It sounds sort of funny to some to say but I heard a director very recently put it this way. The sooner we as actors take down the imaginary “magical” curtain that we’ve put up and destroy this hang up that we have about ruining the illusions of theatre by letting people see what goes on behind the scenes, the easier it will be for people to see that what we do is indeed hard work. (He was pretty passionate about it) Good actors must understand and then attempt to duplicate with all of the honesty they can muster the extremes of the human condition aka Hard stuff. My complete takeaway from my time there at the casting office was I’ve got some serious work to do.

         The end of spring brought about the end of my internship and the closing of my show and with it a bit of starting over in my mind. I had been auditioning during the entire process of my previous show and applying like crazy for jobs (Michaels had cut hours significantly) with no breakthroughs on either front. But the lack of response was ok in March. By May and the beginning of June it was not! Thank goodness for amazing friends, family, and faith in a God that says He will supply all of my needs according to His riches and glory! I remember sitting at a bus stop on the phone with my mom and completely feeling helpless. What is it about mothers having the exact words that you need at the exact moment you need them. (What class do you all take for that?!) All I know is that I got up from that bus stop with a renewed sense of purpose. Nothing fell into place for probably another month but by the end of June, I was understudying for a company that I loved and even more recently due to start rehearsals for two shows in August and November. I joined an amazing prayer group with some amazing artists. Hours at the day job (or night job for those of you who have had conversations with me over the phone right before I clock in for that midnight shift) have picked up and I’ve acquired a kid. Don’t worry I only have him for a few hours Monday through Friday and then I get to give him back.

So, how are the old Windy City and I getting along? Well we certainly have our fights and disagreements and apparently she’s pretty hot with someone. It was in the high 90s all last week with a heat index that I don’t even want to talk about. But she’s cooling off and all in all we’re doing just fine. I really think she likes me. The feeling is definitely mutual.


Oh and as for that gyro (pronounced yeer-oh; NOT gear-oh or jih-roh according to the extremely passionate workers) restaurant, it's called...




I've included their website here so you can watch their videos and be jealous if you don't live in driving distance!
http://gyro-mena.com/home.html

Goodbye! or as my greek friends would say "αντίο" (adio)









Tuesday, July 9, 2013

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

Onto number 2 on the list.  3 fears.

I'm sort of wondering what "legitmate" means in this case.  Aren't all fears legit?  Well, mine probably aren't. But these are the first three things that popped into my head.

1. The dark.  I mean like pitch black dark.  Is there anybody that likes that?  Have you ever been locked in a closet or bathroom or something?  I freak out just a little.  It hasn't happened to me much because I make sure it doesn't.  At work there is a bathroom without windows and the light is on the opposite side of the wall.  (Why?  Who designed it that way?!) When I close at the end of the night and have to turn the light off, I do one of two things: open the door as wide as possible and run to the light switch and then run back to the door before it flings shut, or occasionally I will stretch my body as wide as possible by holding the door with one leg, my toe pointed like a ballerina, and reeeeeaching the opposite arm to touch the switch.  Both methods work not all that well.

2. Water.  This sort of goes along with the dark.  It is the fear of the unknown.  Like, swimming in a lake or the ocean is the most unappealing thing ever.  Not fun in the least.  We have no idea what is in that water.  Pools are doable, but still, water not my favorite thing.  Random fact: when I was young, in school we were taught that all bodies of water are somehow connected.  So I convinced myself that this included the YMCA pool that I used to swim in.  In my mind it was possible for all the sea creatures to get into the water through a drain or some sort of water recycle system because the water has to come from somewhere and go somewhere, so although it was unlikely, it was completely POSSIBLE.  I was scared of the pool. But, in my defense I was pretty young...I think. Second random fact: in 2012 when I went to Florida with my grad school class, I gave in and swam in the ocean with friends, and there was a shark that swam right behind me.  It was close!!!!  Others think it was a Dolphin...but I know deep down that it was a shark.  I didn't swim anymore on the trip after that near death experience.

3.  Crowds.  Oh my gosh, I am starting to hyperventilate just thinking about it.  Crowded places like the grocery store or concerts or clubs/pubs all make me tense up and run for cover!  I can handle it and hold it together for the most part.  But this usually entails not breathing, clenching my fists, and holding back tears.  When my parents visited for the 4th of July we went to Navy Pier (against every Chicagoan's advice).  The day was lovely and all in all wasn't too crowded.  Sure there were lines and bumping into people a little bit, but for the most part, we had room to breathe.  That was until after the fireworks.  Everyone on the whole pier was trying to leave at the same time out of the same small arched entrance.  I tried to mentally put a shield/bubble/cocoon up around my body, but there are bodies pushing up against me from all sides popping my personal space bubble!!!  Pretty much my worst nightmare, but it only lasted for about 30 minutes.  Plus, my Momma was there yelling at people crunching me.  It was so funny.  One guy tried to shove past me, or maybe was shoved into me, (was he drunk??)  I don't know what happened, but she yelled, "Get off of her!"  She was ready to physically push him but I think the yelling was enough.  Yup, not so scary with Momma around.  :)

Monday, July 1, 2013

Dear 16 Year Old Self

Dear 16 year old self,

I have five important points to tell you just to make life easier and more enjoyable.  

1.  These years suck and that's okay.  They go by super fast and you aren't going to really remember all that much anyway. So relax and try to enjoy yourself a little a more.  

2. Work harder on your grades.  Those A's and B's are nice, but we both know you could do better.  Don't work hard because you have to get into the perfect college or because your whole life depends on a certain test, but because your work ethic says a lot about who you are, so start doing your best ALWAYS. And stop letting those B+ be good enough.

3. All of these boys that have crushes on you and are professing their love for you...are nice people.  Try to be nice and let them down easy. Don't lead them on because you like the game and attention.  Your heart is going to be broken someday, so be kind with their hearts.  

4.  Your parents are amazing.  They are the only two people who are going to stick by you through anything and everything.  Love them just a little more, cherish Sunday Family Days, and make sure they know how much they mean to you.


5.  You're pretty cool.  The sooner you realize this and accept yourself, faults and all, you will be happy. Stop putting so much pressure on yourself to be perfect.  You are going to let go of that expectation later, and life will be a lot better.